Durand de Marle stood at the foot of his wife's bier and studied her face. "You are lovely, Marion." He touched her cold hand and rubbed the smooth gold of her ring with his thumb. "As lovely in death as you were in life."

Truly she looked to him as if only asleep, as if she might arise to chastise him for being gone so long. Her woolen gown of soft blue was one he did not recognize. Her jewels were those he had given her on their wedding day--long ropes of pearls from the Holy Land, a girdle of silver and gold disks. "Your sister has done well by you." Idly, he rearranged a fold of her skirt.

He circled the small private chapel and examined with close attention a tapestry he had not noticed before. The subject, the martyrdom of St. Stephen, did nothing for his state of mind. Finally, his steps returned him to the bier.

He glanced down at the embroidered cushions placed for mourners that they might pray in comfort by Lady Marion's side. With a sigh, he sank down on one.

Prayer escaped him.

Forgiveness escaped him.

One of the thick candles on the small marble altar guttered and extinguished in the sharp scent of wax and smoke. He watched the thin thread of vapor rise to the whitewashed ceiling.

He counted seventeen wax candles. How many hours had they been lighted? How many moments until he was plunged into concealing darkness?

Rising, he again paced the length and breadth of the chamber. "Why can I not pray?" he asked of the martyred Stephen.

Two more candles flickered into oblivion.

"Will I fare better in darkness?" He pinched out two more. Deep shadows filled the corners of the small chapel. Returning to the bier, he knelt and clasped his hands, his gaze on his wife's face. Marion's features, cast now in shadow, looked like those of an innocent girl.

"Forgive the sins of my wife," Durand began. "Forgive the winter cold of my heart."

As if conjured by magic, the fragrance of spring came to him.

Sweet violets, wet leaves, rich earth.

He rose and turned to seek the source of the lush scents. At the rear of the chapel, by an ancient baptismal font, garbed all in white, stood a ghost.

"Forgive me, my lord, for intruding on your prayers," the ghost said softly and stepped backward, closer to a rank of candles by the chapel entrance.

Not a spirit, a woman.

In her arms, she held a huge basket filled with flowers--the source of the wonderful perfume of the forest and field.

"Nay. Stay." He held up a hand, palm out. "You do not intrude. Come forward."

Despite her heavy burden, the woman walked toward him with a graceful motion that only enhanced his first impression of a ghost. Did her feet touch the floor? Involuntarily, he glanced down at her hem. 'Twas ordinary leather shoes he saw. Sturdy ones, at that.

"I could return at a later hour, my lord." She sank into a respectful curtsy, but her gaze was on the torque about his neck. The air filled with the seductive scents of her basket.

"Nay. Remain. Take what time you need." Durand walked to the fore of the chapel and lighted more candles to better see this ethereal creature. She came to his side, set the basket on a wooden bench, and then busied herself filling an altar oil lamp.

In the candle's glow, the woman's hair was dark and glossy. It lay in a silky plait entwined with narrow ribbons down her back. Her brows were finely arched, her eyes dark when she glanced up at him now and then.

Each time she raised her eyes, he nodded his acceptance of her presence that she might remain at her task. Moving closer, he attempted to put her at ease. He touched a lacy weave of ferns and ribbons in her basket. "Is this your work?"

The woman nodded and ducked her head. She draped intricate garlands of flowers about his wife. Each touch of the delicate petals of violets brought a renewal of the scents of spring.

"May I, my lord?" The woman held up a beautiful cascade of leaves, trailing vines and ribbons.

He nodded, not understanding what she intended. She opened his wife's hands, and when she was finished, Marion looked like a bride to a forest deity. "You have made her more beautiful than any of these jewels," he said, sweeping a hand out to encompass the ropes of pearls and links of gold.

A delicate flush crossed the woman's cheeks. "I but wish to honor my lady," she said softly. "She was kind to me." Her gaze met his.

A sudden pounding rose in his throat. A throb echoed in his wrists and temples. "Who are you?" he asked.

She tilted her head to examine him. He felt naked.

"Who am I?" She lifted her empty basket and turned away. He watched the straight column of her back, the sway of her skirts, the dark rope of her plait as she glided away from him. "I am your wet nurse, my lord."

Durand left the chapel a few moments later and entered the great hall. He strode to the fore where he sat beside his wife's sister, Oriel Martine. She must act as mistress of Ravenswood castle now Marion was dead. He waited until a servant poured him a goblet of wine before speaking.

Oriel smiled up at him with the same soft blue eyes of Marion, from a similar oval face, and cloud of fair hair.

"Oriel, have I a wet nurse?"

She rose. "You're impossible, Durand. Your daughter, as you well know, must be fed just as a son must be. I'm sure if the babe had been a boy, you would not only know the wet nurse, but would have assigned him a groom for the destrier you would have surely purchased the day he was born!" She swept away, chin in the air.

He sighed. "Badly done, Durand." He looked over the crowded hall. The many folk who sat at the tables and benches spoke in low tones out of respect to Death who had so recently claimed their mistress. The young woman from the chapel was not to be seen.

A man approached him with hesitation in his step. "My lord?"

Durand nodded. The man was darkly handsome, thin as a hungry hound, as finely dressed and elegantly shod as a courtier in King John's court. "What is it, Master le Gros?"

"Please, accept again my deepest sympathy at the loss of our most dear Lady Marion," the merchant said in soft, grave tones. Durand inclined his head. "I don't wish to trouble you at such a time, nor do I wish to intrude--"

"Then speak quickly, le Gros."

"Of course, my lord." He cleared his throat. "If you summon your sons for Lady Marion's services, have they need of . . ." le Gros dropped his voice to yet an even more somber whisper, "clothes appropriate to the occasion? I've a very fine wool to garb them."

"Don't trouble yourself. My sons have all they need."

"As you wish, my lord." Simon bowed, but remained in place.

"What is it?" Durand had difficulty keeping the impatience from his voice.

"I cannot find Lord Luke. He was to have . . . ah, hem, ah, settled some accounts."

Durand took a deep breath to prevent himself from loosing his temper on the merchant standing before him. "Leave the accounts with me, and I'll see my brother attends to them."

Simon opened a leather purse at his belt and withdrew a folded leaf of parchment. He placed it precisely before Durand. "Again, may I offer you my deepest sympathy. I have added Lady Marion to my prayers. I will say more prayers each day--

"Aye. As you wish." Durand sought to forestall more words of prayers.

"My lord." Le Gros bowed several times before retreating.

"Is the worm gone?" Penne Martine, Oriel's husband and his closest friend, slid into the seat beside him. He so resembled his wife, he was ofttimes mistaken for her brother.

Durand forced a smile. "Worm? I prefer to think of le Gros as a standing bog, oozing his elegant speech across all who cross his path. But . . . I have known him but two days."

"Then why keep him about?" Penne signaled for more wine. A few inches shorter than Durand, he had the same knightly build found in men who had wielded a sword for years and ridden horseback just as long. Penne, however, lacked the hardness of Durand's features. Penne looked ready to laugh. Durand knew he looked ready to chastise.

"Why not? You know I trust my brother's judgment in all these matters. Luke claims Simon le Gros's prices are fair. And Luke claims Marion found the merchant's wife made scented lotions unparalleled anywhere in Christendom."

"If Mistress le Gros makes the lotion Oriel is rubbing on her skin these days, le Gros must be retained at all cost. Or his wife must be. My Oriel's skin is like swan's down and she smells like a summer garden. A seductive summer garden. I simply sniff her neck and want to--" Penne's cheeks colored. "Forgive me. I should not be speaking of such things when Marion is--"

"Penne. Cease! I'm sick to death of everyone tip-toeing about me. No one finishes a sentence. No one meets my eye."

Except the maiden in the chapel. She had looked him in the eye, and reminded him most painfully of what a woman's glance could inspire.

"Everyone loved Lady Marion," Penne said.

"Aye," Durand said. "Everyone loved Lady Marion."

After an uncomfortable moment of silence, Durand cleared his throat. "I've annoyed your Oriel." He filled his goblet again, spilling a few drops on le Gros's accounts when a woman in white entered the hall. Dashing the wine from the parchment, he realized she was not the one who had so beautifully adorned his wife. That woman had been more roundly formed, had walked with greater grace, announced herself with her scent.

"How so?" Penne accepted the cup of wine Durand held out.

"I asked if I had a wet nurse."

"A simple enough question."

"Then why did Oriel take such offense?"

Penne's gaze slid away from Durand's. "Oriel is always sensitive where babes are concerned." His long fingers played with the stem of the goblet. "Oriel believes you neglect the infant. Have you seen her yet?"

Durand felt a hot flush rush up his cheeks. "I don't need to see the babe. When she's old enough to marry off, I'll look her over."

"If you said such a thing to Oriel, no wonder she took offense. It is just how her father thought. We were the benefactors, but still, Oriel is ever mindful that she and Marion had no say in whom they wed." Penne shook his head and sliced himself a piece of buttery yellow cheese.

"They did not mind for long--" Durand broke off. The woman from the chapel entered the hall. He knew her in an instant, had no need to be close enough to catch her scent. Her walk, alone, announced her. She crossed the hall toward the steps leading to the east tower which housed small chambers for upper servants. And his infant daughter, he supposed.

Just as she reached the steps, she turned and looked at him.

Her step slowed. She stopped. With a small dip of her dark head, she nodded, then disappeared into the tower stairs.

Durand's mouth dried. "Penne. Did you see that woman who just crossed the hall to the north tower?"

"Aye." Penne nodded.

Try as he might, Durand could not quite meet Penne's eyes. "Is she the child's wet nurse?"

Penne nodded. "Aye. She is."

Warmth flooded Durand's body. He felt as ashamed of the sensation here in the hall as he had felt in the chapel. Another sin to add to his burdens--lustful thoughts over his wife's body.

"I pity her," Penne said.

Durand jerked around to face his friend. "Pity her?"

"Oh, aye. She may be your wet nurse, but she is also Simon le Gros's wife."

Cristina le Gros forced herself to move up the stone steps that led to the chamber she now called her own. She felt intensely conscious of the attention of the men in the hall.

Of his attention.

Finally, after so many months, Durand de Marle was in residence. Finally, she had met the man so many spoke of with respect and, in some cases, fear, met the man who had come to her in the mist and remained in her nightly dreams.

A warrior lord, he had about him a manner that at once challenged and at the same time, invited. His skin was sun-dark and lined from exposure to the harsh conditions of the Holy Land where she knew, from Lady Marion's gossip, he had served the late King Richard. One of her lotions might smooth the cares from his . . . nay, she must not think such thoughts.

"Thank you, Alice," she said to a serving woman and took Lord Durand's babe into her arms. Alice assisted her in unlacing her gown that she might put the child to breast.

Alice settled on a low stool by her chair and began to weep. "'Er ladyship be dead two days now. I cannot believe it, miss. Each time I see the babe, I thinks o' me mistress. Cold in the chapel, soon to be cold in the crypt." Alice wiped at her eyes with her apron. "How many days did my mistress lie in 'er bed, weak and fevered? How many? Fifty? Sixty? And he never came within a league o' 'er."

"'Twas thirty days. And you know Lady Marion forbid us to summon him. And then . . . when she finally succumbed, he came immediately."

Alice shook her head. "I'll miss 'er terrible. I been wiv 'er since she were a babe 'erself."

Cristina leaned over and gently patted Alice's hand. "I know. My mother is dead now and she was much beloved by myself and all who knew her. Of course, she was but a merchant's wife, but still many mourned her loss. It is right you should think of Lady Marion. Pray for her soul." She looked down at the babe who kneaded her breast with a tiny fist. "Pray for this one, too."

"Aye, miss, but when I sees the babe, I think o' me mistress. Why could not Lord Durand be content wiv 'is two fine sons?"

"Alice! Don't say such things."

Alice shook her graying head. Her seamed face channeled her tears to drip from the point of her chin. "Ye be new 'ere, Miss. I 'ave served de Marles for two score years. 'Tis always the same. De Marle men be ruled by lust. 'Is lordship comes 'ome after months away, plants 'is seed, and then disappears. And 'er ladyship must bear the fruit of that lust. And die of it!" Alice's words were lost in choking sorrow.

Cristina closed off her thoughts from Alice's tirade. She shifted toward the hearth and hummed softly to the babe. She combed her fingers through the silky fair hair that crowned the little head.

"Forgive me, Miss." Alice knelt at her side. "I forgot ye lost yer own babe."

"Aye, Alice." Cristina bit her lip. Her own infant had died on the very day this one was born. Only three days had her own daughter lived. So sweet, so healthy, so quickly sickening and so quickly gone.

"And Lord Durand'll wed ere the year is out, ye'll see. 'Twill be another in my sweet lady's place, 'twill be as if my lady never lived."

"Why do you think that?" Cristina looked up at Alice.

"Lords marry for power, miss, ye know that. 'E'll sniff about for more land and pluck some innocent off the vine like a ripe plum so she can suffer for 'is lust as well." Alice tossed her head and wiped her tears on her sleeve. "'Tis a blessing ye were 'ere in the keep to take Lady Marion's babe to yer breast."

"Aye, a blessing. I suppose 'twas God's will."

"Humph. God's will. If God 'ere a female, men would lie in childbed, sufferin' and dyin' fer lust. 'Is lordship 'asna even seen the babe."

"Alice. Could you fetch me a cup of warm milk?"

The serving woman rose and hastened to the task, leaving Cristina in blessed silence. She did not wish to hear one more word of lust and death. She rummaged in a coffer and found soft, clean cloths to change the babe and marveled at the tiny toes and dimpled legs as she had at her own babe's.

A child is all she had ever wished for. Was it not a woman's purpose in life to give birth and nurture? She had failed so at the one. At least for a time, she could do the other. Already, holding and nurturing this child helped her wounds to heal. She planted kisses on the babe's cheeks.

"I hope you resemble your mother, little one. If you develop your father's stubborn chin and noble nose, you may find yourself without a suitor in all King John's kingdom." She tickled the child's belly and received the wide-eyed squirm of a healthy babe. She wrapped her in clean swaddling.

The door creaked open and Cristina hastily pulled the edges of her gown together. "Alice?" She turned to the door.

"I see you're still in your fine nest, Cristina." Simon le Gros eased the door closed behind him and strode about the chamber. He rubbed his hands before the fire. "Aye. This is better than any scheme I could have devised. You're surely in the lord's good favor here."

"What is it you want, Simon?"

"Why, Cristina, I merely wish to know how you fare." He smiled. "You are hidden here with the babe, I have scarcely seen you since you brought Lady Marion her pomanders, let me think . . . the day you gave birth."

Once his smile had intrigued her, his words had beguiled her, his handsome face had drawn her. Now she thought only that he had not come to see her but once since the death of their own babe, and yet, according to Alice, had inquired of Lady Marion several times each day as that fine lady lay near death.

He swept his hands out to encompass the chamber. "Had her ladyship survived the child's birth, she would have recommended us to Lord Durand. We might have obtained Old Owen's charter now he's too sick to serve, and made our home here. But as Lady Marion is now dead and that fool Lord Luke--"

"Hush, Simon. Don't let the servants hear you speak in such a manner of Lord Durand's brother. Lord Luke is castellan here. It would not do to offend him or Lord Durand."

"No one can hear me." Simon waved off her objections. "You must ingratiate yourself to Lord Durand on the infant's account. Each time he visits smile and be agreeable. He has no need of your pomanders or lotions, but there is no other woman here in the keep who can nurture his child."

Cristina did not tell Simon that Lord Durand never visited his child. Of course, he had arrived at de Marle castle to find his wife dead of childbed fever. Mayhap his grief kept him from inquiring after the infant. She would not believe him as heartless as Alice painted him.

Mayhap he blamed the infant for his wife's death.

"Lady Marion's death is a sore trial to us," Simon continued.

"Lady Oriel seems to enjoy my wares as much as her sister."

Simon rubbed his palms together. "Excellent. She'll have influence on Lord Durand." Then Simon frowned. "If 'tis suggested some village woman may nurse the child, can you give the infant some potion to sicken her?"

Cristina gasped and shot to her feet. "Simon! I would never do such a thing! I know nothing of such potions."

Simon strode to where she stood, the child warm and now sleeping against her breast, tiny mouth agape. He skimmed his long fingers over the child's head. "I did not mean you to harm her. Just it would suit us all if the babe preferred your milk. You'll do whatever I require of you, will you not? Your presence here deprives me of your services in my bed. You have birthed but two babes, females, by God, and dead before they saw a single summer. We know 'tis through no fault of mine."

His words were tiny hammers on the anvil of her pain.

"Now, the king will surely come here when he embarks for Normandy. The place will be overrun with ladies who may want your wares."

"Here? The king is coming here, again?" She bit her lip. "I thought Lord Durand was to leave in a day or two."

Simon smiled. "The gossips say Lord Durand will remain here to await the king, so we must make our place now. You'll do whatever it takes to secure a position for us here at Ravenswood, will you not?"

Cristina rose. She placed the babe on the narrow bed and quickly laced her gown tightly closed.

Simon pulled her around. "You'll do whatever is required. Kiss Lord Durand's muddy boots if he should want it. Anything."

Cristina looked up at her husband's face. His dark hair curled about his neck, fine as swan's down. "I will do what duty requires," she said softly.

Simon nodded. "That's better, more what I expect of you. Ingratiate yourself and be quick about it. I want to be established with a charter when the king arrives. If another secures it, it will be he who reaps the wealth of John's coffers." He rubbed his palms together. "King John spends freely. Lord Durand will have need to spend just as lavishly to please him. Do what is needed."

Simon swept out of the room.

Cristina sank to the bed beside the babe. She gathered the child into her arms. "Oh, my sweet, how innocent you are. How unknowing of the intrigues of men."

Tears burned her eyes as she thought of her own babes who lay in their graves, one beneath the lavender fields of home, one here in de Marle land.

"Mistress le Gros?"

Lord Durand stood at the bedchamber door left open by Simon's departure. "Lord Durand." She came around the draped bed and sank into a curtsy. "How may I be of service?"

Lord Durand did not move from the doorway. His gaze traveled slowly over her. She had to force herself not to touch her hair or assure herself her gown was properly laced.

"It is I who may be of service to you."

She tipped her head and considered him. "How, my lord?"

Finally, he entered the chamber, but only a few feet. A touch of fatigue underlay his sun-darkened complexion.

"You nourish the child, you adorn my wife, how may I reward you?"

Cristina smiled. "I seek no reward, my lord. I want for nothing. All is provided before I have need to ask, but I thank you for your concern."

"I'm glad of it. But you must come to me if you find some lack here." He glanced toward a deep alcove off the chamber.

Would that she had not tied back the drape that concealed the sunny space.

"What are you doing?" he asked and stepped into the alcove.

She followed him to the table that held dried flowers and the other assorted ingredients needed to practice her craft. "I'm preparing a mixture of flowers for Lady Oriel's soap." Would he object to her working here?

One by one, he lifted each small bowl and sniffed it, then extended one to her. "This is lavender, is it not?"

Cristina inclined her head. "English lavender seeds from my father. Far finer than any found in France."

He smiled. "Of course. This soap for Lady Oriel," he said. "What will be in it?"

"Lady Oriel misses the summer flowers of Mirebeau, her former home, I believe. I will endeavor to mix something reminiscent of that place."

His gaze captured hers. "Your work brings more than a sweet smell then. What would you mix for me?"

The scents of mist and forest.

Aloud she said simply, "Whatever most pleases you, my lord."